no more "nitenite" nor many others from you. no more. extinct. why?
no more long conv. why?
maybe i'm not that impt?
its almost completely different that its like starting all over again. why cant we pick up from where we left off?
i cant grasp wads been happening so far.
having headache everyday. maybe its because of the continuous hitting/slaping of myself to numb the pain in me. just maybe.
i'm so so far back in my sch work. i dunno how to catch up. really dun understand anything. my brain keeps drifting off. i cant stay focused.
i'm trying very very hard to be normal and the same. but it is all just a facade that i'm putting up for you. its you you know. why do i still need to wear a mask in front of you? its ridiculous. the real me is constantly tearing. which is not practical as i still have to go back to the society.
are you dumbfounded by the truth?
betty♥boo