OH FUCK!
i cant believe you. how many untold truths do you still have? how many times do i have to ask until you tell the real truth? it took a hand-full of asking before you said it. i know you know that i'll blow up. but still. i'm EVEN MORE hurt.
you can be so punctual to talk to them everyday but not me? hmmm. maybe for now its the happiest thing you look forward to the whole day. i dun believe you can make such good friends in less than 5 days. how much do you understand? is like after so many years you still dun understand me. what more them.
do i not have the right to be jealous? you mean i'm not human? or that i'm just a robot with no feelings? that i have to be there when you want and not when you dont want? is that what you want? if yes, i will and can be.
oh. have you forgotten the last tiff we had? hmmmmm.. i remb you saying that you wanna sleep by 10 everyday. and that i always make you sleep late resulting in you being really tired the next day. wells. they are taking up your sleeping time and you are very happy. wows. your rules/values/watever that you follow by is not CONSISTENT at all. if thats the case, is my trust in the correct place? it somehow feels like a stockmarket where everything is fluctuating all the time.
seriously. i nearly wanted to put everything down this afternoon. but came another wave. actually every night sleeping at 11 plus and saying that you are playing com, i know wad you are doing alr. i guessed it. but i forced myself not to believe it. then and then again you were just "playing com". well. fuck you.
too many waves that i drowned. wad's left is a empty shell.
since we got nothing else to talk about why not dun call? anyway you life and things that you wanna tell me is all about that and 'c'. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU I DUN WANNA HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT IT ANYMORE? why do you not take my words seriously. i dun tell lies like you do. when you have OTHER things to say then call. oh ya. i forgot that i'm just a robot. as and when you want me then i'll be there to fufil all your needs. do whatever you want. but be reminded that i'm still a girl. maybe you have forgotten.
i have had enough. let go?
betty♥boo