ok. besides that. my life still sux. although reports are over. there's still CAs and tutorials. PLUS. i'm ill. down with an itchy throat. and i cant find my voice. i lost it in my sleep. maybe i should go back to dreamland and find it. =(
hais. i realised that i'm just a lousy player. maybe i'm just not gonna make any friends. felt very sad on wed night when i realised how a loner feels. even when the conductor tells a joke, i don't feel like laughing. nobody helps you do anything. carrying the bass up and down and opening 4 doors just to play then keeping it. i wish i still had my nice seniors ard. i'm like just joining for experience. super demoralising. dont feel like going alr. sectional teacher dont know anything about bass plus dont care about me de. yesterday's orchestra they had to play this song which i had 17+15+15+6+14 bars rest. hais. it is not a friendly place which i had imagined. the thing which i looked forward to and kept me going in uni CRASHED yesterday.
14 march 2009. TO concert. dunno if i'll ever be good enough to make it. i really need farhan's help.
hais. one step at a time. now have to focus on my ever deproving studies and recover from my illness.
oh. i hope you recover too. all the best for your operation.. *heartache
betty♥boo